It is New Year's Eve as I write this.
Last year at this time, I was on my 10th round of chemo and
anxiously taking my temperature every fifteen minutes. I was running
a temperature and did not want to spend the evening in the ER. Well,
there was no such luck. I had a fever of 102 and was watching the
count down to the new year in an exam room while a bed was being
prepped for me on the cancer isolation floor. I spent several days
there while they fought the fever. I left the hospital with nerve
damage in my feet from the chemo. The numbness from that persists to
this day though it isn't as bad as it first was. 2011 did not begin
well at all. But I learned a great deal about perspective since my
diagnosis. As bad as that New Year was, it was far better than the
one before when I still faced a major operation just months after
the first one. Chemo loomed after that. I began 2011 damaged but
cancer free. I've tried to treat each day of this past year as a gift
to be appreciated as much as possible. On the whole, I believe I have
succeeded. I still have a lot of hurdles to overcome physically, and
the spectre of the disease is always lurking in the background. But I
feel I've turned a corner and am looking forward to an even better
year to come.
Culinary
Since I still spend a lot of time at
home and still have a lot of stress related to recovery, I have the
opportunity and motivation to work on my culinary skills. I took on
some really crazy things this year. For the most part, the results
were good. Some were even great. The baguette still eludes me though
on the last pass, the flavor and texture were there. I'm still having
trouble getting it to rise properly. There is something I'm missing
somewhere. I plan to look at more videos and recipes. Strangely, I
thought that either puff pastry or croissants would be more
difficult. They are time consuming recipes for sure, but the results
were just sublime! The upside to both the croissant and puff pastry
is that it freezes perfectly, so there are baked goods for quite some
time after whipping up a batch. The other interesting dish that was
good though I couldn't call it successful was tiramisu. Incidentally,
after searching high and low for lady fingers and ending up at a
specialty shop to find them, we've been finding them everywhere. Last
week, we found them in a drug store. Jon believes the lady fingers
are now mocking us. That could be true. I'm not sure when we'll try
the recipe again. It makes such a big tray. We'll need to have an
event with lots of people to eat it before making it again. In fact,
there is a challenge I'd like to beat next year. There are recipes
for souffles and tiramisu that make many servings and do not freeze.
I'm searching high and low for recipes that work well for individual
servings or that freeze well. I'm open to any suggestions.
Aside from enjoying the food my
obsession is producing, I got some recognition that was really
exciting. My tiramisu effort was recognized by the authors of the
recipe, Gabriele Corcos and Debi Mazar of The Cooking Channel's
Extra Virgin. My Sugar Plums – a new treat I made at the last
minute this year – was praised via Twitter by Alton Brown himself!
But strangely, it's been the interaction with some Japanese chefs
that has most jazzed me. I think it's because I had never cooked
anything in that cuisine before. I was very thrilled that my first
effort at sushi got a thumbs up viaTwitter from a host of a major
cooking show in Japan,
Your Japanese Kitchen. That was really cool,
but I've been as jazzed by interactions with Japanese chefs who have
shows on Youtube. They are widely followed there. I've tried many
dishes by
Ochikeron .
She's been very encouraging, and she's been recognized by the
original Iron Chefs! And I was beyond thrilled when the wildly
popular host of
Cooking with Dog deemed my version of her pumpkin soup delicious.
2011 was a good year in the kitchen for
me. In 2012, I see some inevitable things happening. I will try to
make my own pasta from scratch. I've had fresh pasta over the years.
There was one spot in Philly's
Reading Terminal Market
that sold astonishing ravioli and tortellini. But it hasn't been
until recently that I've been convinced that it's a recipe I can pull
off. And I can see myself grinding my own meats for burgers and
sausages. I was on my way to that practice anyway, because it's
difficult to find the kinds of coarse grinds in beef that I like for
chili. And I have been profoundly influenced by Michael Pollan's
FoodRules
. He advocates eating foods that are as little commercially processed
as possible. Beyond that, I'm exploring two new cookbooks (Micahel
Symon's
Live to Cook
and Anne Burrell's
Cook Like a Rock Star ) that strongly recommend making both homemade pasta sausages for
their recipes. I can't wait to report back with all that I am
learning!
A Quick note on kitchen disasters. I
will try the mango pitting device suggested by a kind reader though
I've seen Bobby Flay nearly lose some fingers with one. I am still
deeply suspicious of mangoes. And I have yet to poach an egg
successfully. I've tried so many 'fool proof' tips. Obviously these
chefs have never met me! Still, I will continue to try. There are so
many dishes I like which include poached eggs.
Creatively
The year did not begin that well
creatively. I found that doing even the shortest of shoots was beyond
my reach physically. Some of the difficulty simply comes from being
older. Wearing that many hats in a production was a lot harder in
2011 than it was in 1998. I'm also missing my most trusty production
coordinators, Randy and Phil. Not that I'm heaping guilt upon them.
Even if they were available, there is the second reason that I have
slowed down. In the wake of the two surgeries and ten rounds of
chemo, I have changed. My 'new normal' leaves me far slower at many
things than I used to be. And I can never predict when I will tire
easily or have other, more unpleasant problems. Thus, I had to shelve
plans to shoot the web series I had planned. That was a tad
depressing. But there was a yin to that yang. I was suddenly writing
fiction again. The guys came alive for me in two story lines. I'm
still working on one, but the other –
Ensnared Volumes 1&2 –
is out and well received. My
Soldier boys are giving my Vampire a
hard time. It's fun to write though a bit odd for me. More on that on
http://sybpressyaoi.com . Oh, and a special shout out to my talented cover artist, Adrianna Ferguson. You were the find of the year!
Aside from the books going well, I was
challenged creatively by a solicitation for stories by one the
edgiest genre writers I've run across in a very long time. He is best
known as
Made in DNA. His content is way out on the fringe most of the time. Many of the
titles are Not Safe For Work. His work seems offensive at first
blush. But there is so much more going on than cybersex. Brent has a
way of using the sparest of prose to speak volumes. His worlds are
often as dark and scary as they are sex-charged. But his fiction is
always smart, and it can be wickedly funny. To write for him was
quite a challenge as I am not prone toward darkness. I pushed myself
in directions I had never gone with my work while adhering to a rigid
word count. The results were pieces that I would not have thought of
were it not for the challenge in Brent's guidelines. It was an
exasperating and exhilarating experience that left me in a different
space as a writer. I look forward to pushing myself like that again
sometime soon. I'm also very pleased to have found an inspiring and
thought provoking writer like Brent.
I found that an awful lot of my
creative experiences and opportunities came from the copious amount
of times I spent online in 2011. While I was laying the groundwork
for networking my next books and indulging in my geeky past times, I
was making some important connections. My late night on line
discussions and diatribes lead to speaking at two really cool
conventions. And those events lead to the suggestion that I try for a
freelance position at Digital Manga as an editor. This was a huge
step for me, and it is an endlessly fascinating challenge to take
someone's work and make it sound like natural English yet still have
the author's voice and intent clear in the dialogue. This is done
without being able to read Japanese fluently – thus I must rely on
the translator – and without ever interacting with the author.
Strangely, I am enjoying the process. The conventions also allowed me
to meet and have protracted conversations with writers I have long
admired like Jane Espenson, Wendy Pini and HamletMachine. Who knows
where all these connections will take me creatively, but I can't wait
to find out.
Project Updates
The web series (Demon Under Glass and
Blood Oath) remain on hold as far as new shoots. Aside from the
physical problems I've already mentioned, Jon's availability is now
very limited. I haven't figured out how to make that work. I am
hoping that the short for Blood Oath will be finished this year. It
requires new artwork and a lot of focus. With Jon's limited
availability, I'm not sure how that will work either. In far better
news, there are four films from our catalog that have become active
in recent months. One may actually move to pre-production in January.
Our partners in Dragoncor/EarthDraggon have had a year of
extraordinary connections as well. Some of them may bear fruit very
soon. I can't give details, because we all had to sign agreements to
not talk about anything. That's quite exciting,
In the book arena,
Ensnared Volume Two
will be out in January. There will finally be a third
Soldier's book
and a third
Surrender book. Both of those series will feature a
relaunch of the first two in each series and a big advertising and
social network push. We will see some new authors in the latest
Demonspawn collection along with some favorites. And Sybpress will be
launching a new author in the red hot romantica (romance/erotica)
genre. Our very own Marguerite Lliteras will debut the very naughty
The Intern very soon. You can read all about her history as a writer
and the enticing origins of The Intern at
http://sybpressromantica.com.
2012 is going to be fantastic in many
areas.
Stay tuned!