It's odd writing a blog today.
Usually, I'm getting ready for Thanksgiving madness or recovering
from the food coma. I wasn't sure I would have the time to write one,
but there are large lulls in cooking. Having two shoots in the
apartment in a short time left it fairly clean. Thus, I don't have to
run around dusting and what not. Mind, we are going to a friend's for
the dinner itself on Thursday. Why clean? I just never know who might
turn up at my door that hasn't been following my comings and goings
closely or who needs safe harbor despite my plans. They know that I
roast one size turkey – huge. And the sides and desserts are
plentiful. I'm used to cooking for the family back east who were
healthy eaters and liked to have a plate and dessert to take home.
I wrote the paragraph at 9am
on Wednesday when I believed everything was going well. I hit a wall
not too long afterward struggling with the pie dough discs. I tired a
new recipe that proved to be more delicate that the norm. That put me
behind schedule. I also didn't have my sous chef, Jon, to do the
dishes. I had far more to do by the time Jon got home that I would
have normally, and my energy was fading. I never caught up to my
original notions of a schedule, but everything got done by the time
we left for dinner at Marie's. I was just left with zero time to
write the blog. I'm sure that my US readers were busy getting ready
for or travel to the holiday feast. The rest of my gentle readers are
very patient and forgiving, right?
Being Thankful
It was on Thanksgiving in 2009 that I
realized I was in real trouble physically. I was diagnosed with
Appendix Cancer a little over a week later. Thus, this time of year
has a solemn under tone for me. While this time of year begins a
season filled with all manner of stress, it is also the time of year
when my perspective on life is at its sharpest. Money could be tight.
Finding what I need for the meal may be problematic. Costco could be
full of the Walking Dead. I'm not sure that it isn't on a routine
basis. None of that really matters when I remember what was happening
in 2009. I'm not saying that I don't get peeved anymore, but I
usually shake it off after I vent – and not to the person I'm
peeved at. I have managed to learn to not sweat the small stuff.
Actually, large stuff has to be pretty fricken' terrifying to vex me
beyond the initial moment. I am still a world class worrier, but that
is mainly about the next batch of test results.
I was extremely fortunate to be
diagnosed when I was. Despite the previous misdiagnoses, I was
incredibly fortunate. My type of Appendix Cancer is so rare that 99%
of doctors go through their careers without seeing one case of it.
There was a doc at a community clinic who happened to have trained
with the one doc in LA who had treated a case. I was even more
fortunate that it was a slow growing cancer. I liked the term lazy
tumor. And having such a rare cancer gave me free care at a major
teaching hospital, because I was a great teaching tool. All of that
good fortune should not be squandered worrying or fuming about small
stuff.
I am very thankful for all that good
fortune and the chance I was given at life. I am very thankful for
all of the wonderful people that are in my life. I have an
extraordinary support system here and back east on online. I am
finding great creative satisfaction since 2009. In fact, I have found
more creative satisfaction than I have since my graduate school days.
And my Hubs and I have better prospects creatively than ever before.
I can't say that life is perfect. I'd love to be a size 10 again
without being the skeleton I was in 2009. But what isn't perfect, can
be improved. Overall, I am pleased with my lot and grateful to be
here.
Updates
We will be posting the teaser for the
web series next week. A week after that, I will be posting a sample
of the interview with Sean Ferrer Hepburn. I am finally working on
fiction though I have no ETA on when the current novels will be in
the publishing pipeline.
Stay tuned.
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